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November 30th, 2005

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November 7th, 2005

04:40 pm - Anyone know anyone that believes the bible should be taken word for word? Here you go: read and enjoy :) Also.. get out your bibles for extra knowledge and gain by looking up the verses. An open letter to Dr. Laura J. Kent Ashcraft May 2000 Dear Dr. Laura, Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and I try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind him that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. End of debate. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the specific laws and how to best follow them. a) When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord (Lev 1:9). The problem is my neighbors. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them? b) I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her? c) I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness (Lev 15:19-24). The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense. d) Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians? e) I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself? f) A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an Abomination (Lev 11:10), it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this? g) Lev 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here? h) Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev 19:27. How should they die? i) I know from Lev 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves? j) My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev 19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? (Lev 24:10-16) Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14) I know you have studied these things extensively, so I am confident you can help. Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging. Your devoted disciple and adoring fan. Thanks Leo Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Eminem - When I'm Gone

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October 6th, 2005

05:04 pm - You think the only people.. who are people.. are those who look and think like you...... At this moment, I don't even know where I want to start. I've yet to choose a topic name for this thing... and that’s usually the first thing I type. *sighs* I'm stressed out.. Horribly.. And it's really starting to get to me. So, I'm going to try to get some of this out of my system. College has become a problem. I've finally realized that I've taken on much more than I can handle at this point in my life. My third shift job and college are just not mixing well, and I'm coming to realize and accept that my decision was wrong. I can't take this. To be completely blunt about it, I'm failing. My grades are way down in the two classes I actually have at the college. My online class, I'm doing decent in. I’m passing that one. (Mainly because the teacher is very lenient and I can do it on my terms) and lastly, the "hanging" class from the beginning of the semester that I couldn't drop that’s in Greenville.. well.. simply put.. Failed that. I find myself exhausted more than ever now. My job is really putting a lot of physical and mental stress on me. Let’s analyze my situation. I work at the minimum of 5 days a week. My usual schedule is working Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday mornings. I wake up each of these days around 3AM with around 4 and a half hours of sleep or so. I go to work and get off around 1PM or 2PM (We're getting ready for the holidays.. my hours jumped up) I come home.. Take a nap (which is usually only an hour or hour and a half). I have a class on Monday and Wed afternoons at 3:20 or so that I have missed more than once because of being asleep and not hearing my alarm. I go to bed usually around 10:30 or so when I have to work the next morning. I get up and repeat that every work day. Also, I'm working 40 solid hours a week every week. On the days I do not work, Tuesday and Thursday, I have class about 9:20 in the morning, and needless to say I have slept through the alarm on that one as well. Already you can see that my sleep schedule is beyond messed up. It’s terrible. Also, as I have said I've missed some classes. Which doesn't help me much at all. Also, when I'm in class I can barely make myself pay attention, and tests haven't been that good to me either. It’s just not working out. I'm slowly killing myself in a sense. For those of you not in college, It's a full time job in itself with all the class time and studying to keep your grades where they should be. So here I am with two fulltime jobs balanced on my shoulders, and I'm currently breaking at the weight. Also, the job brings tuff strains on my relationship with Nikki, but we are holding up strong. My relationship is one of few things that are very solid at this point. Nikki hates my schedule.. and I can see why. She works 11:45 - 8:15 Monday - Friday. So.. When I work the next morning, I don't get to see her much when she gets home. I work all weekend when she is off... It really puts a strain on the time we get together to do what we want. We can't really plan anything, because money and time just won't allow it. And even thought all that is okay, it’s still creating stress for me. More and more stress... Why don't I quit the job? I can't.. and it’s probably too late to save myself much in my classes anyway. Why can't I quit. I have bills to pay every month. Let me do some math right quick.... Doing quick math, mine and monthly bills add up to... $964 Dollars a month! Oh wait.. I forgot Nikki's car insurance.. let’s bump it up again to around $1094 a month! Well.. that's also not including food, or any other thing that we need during the month (Toilet paper, paper towels, etc.) so yea.. there is why Nikki and I both have to work full time (or .. Part time at 40 hours a week like me) to pay off our stuff. I do receive occasional help from my parents sometimes, which I can never begin to thank them enough for.. it’s a blessing sometimes, but still Nikki and I have to keep our funds up so we can keep everything together. Don't get me wrong. I do enjoy my job. I do not enjoy when I have to work or how crazy my schedule is, but the job itself I do enjoy for the time being. It’s not something I want to do forever, but I enjoy it for what it is now. On a small good note, starting the week after next, they are moving me off of the stock team and putting me where I enjoy working more.. in the backroom doing back stock. So.. there’s a good thing.. on to more ranting. My sister stopped by my apartment the other day. I think she asked me about school and I lied and told her I was doing fine. I said something about how much I hate college and she replied with "Oh. no you don't.. you don't hate college"... I hate when people do that. It irritates me that they would insult me saying that I do not know how I feel. Anyways, the conversation continued and she said something like "You've come too far in it now to just give up".. and I agree. I hate college with a passion. I honestly see no purpose in its existence for most people (save doctors.... surgeons.. etc.) All that work for a silly piece of paper that makes you better than everyone else who don't have a paper. To me, college is a waste of time now. I never have the urge to do anything there and find that I have to force myself to do most everything dealing with it. I've lost my push.. And the only thing that keeps me even trying is the fact that I have come this far... I've put all this time into it, and that’s it. I don’t care about getting a degree, I don’t care about the college, I just don’t care.. I just want to be finished.. Now that I look back on my life... I really, honest-to-god, wish I had gone to a Technical School when I graduated high school. I've since then realized that for some reason High School, and people in general push you to go to college, and not tech. I remember way back I was asked if I was going to college or tech, and at that age I assumed it didn't matter and everyone acted like college was the biggest thing since sliced bread. Well, to everyone who pushed me to college instead of Tech, Go to hell!... Seriously though, If I had gone to tech, I'd be happier now. I'd be done with classes already for good. I'd have my technical degree. I'd be doing something that I really want to be doing (Oh yea.. in case I forgot to mention, I'm not really sure I'm happy with my current major at college either.. Its becoming obvious to me that my computer knowledge will be much of a waste and I'll be more of a member of a committee that sits around does group work....) I want to work on a computer. I want to sit behind a screen and do my thing! I don’t want all this business bullshit that I'm being forced to take. I don’t want to have a minor in medical profession, communications, etc. etc. because I don't care about any of that. I don’t want to work in those fields. If I had gone tech, I would have what I want, and I would be doing what I want to do. I'd almost transfer now (Hell. it looks like it'll be another year and a half anyway of college before I get done.. why not make it 2 and do something I want to do...) I don't know. I honestly don't know. Based on the knowledge of how college and tech works, I really don't have the mind to make the decisions that they want you to. I'll agree with everyone that it's hard to sit down and pick the career path for the rest of your life in one sitting. College for me was great before I came to USC Upstate. I’ve been plagued with a terrible advisor that couldn't tell a tree to grow leaves in the spring and drop them in the fall, much less help me plan out my years at college. This man gets paid WAY too much for whatever he does. Mr. ********** (Name taken out to keep myself from gettin in trouble with that) can go to hell and shove his classes up his ass. I'm sick of the many times I've sought out his guidance only to be handed a sheet of paper or be told he couldn’t do anything about it. Or have him half ass help me and expect me to be able to do everything else. Advise me you asshole!!!!!!!! I've also been plagued with terrible professors (One in general from the Communications department) that couldn't teach a fish to breathe in water... Mrs ******** (Edited for same reason as above), I hope journalism takes you far, because as a professor, you're an idiot. (Hell, I’m gonna get sued by these people for defamation of character or something now) It’s been one hell of a trip through college, but finally, I think everything has caught up with me. I don’t know what to do. I don't know what I want to do. No one can help me with this but myself, and I don’t know what to do... Lastly, the hardest part is gonna be telling my parents that things are this bad. It kills me. They finance my college, and give me money for the things in my house. They help me out every single way that they can, and here I am blowing it in college. I’m wasting their money and its driving me crazy. I'm not a quitter.. I hate failure.. so what the hell is going on..... *Sighs* I don’t know what else to do... or what else to say...... Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There

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October 2nd, 2005

06:20 pm - Jesus > Your Pets http://bunnyherolabs.com/imagetest/fortune_img.php?m=Vg+gnxrf+znal+anvyf+gb+ohvyq+pevo....+ohg+bar+fperj+gb+svyy+vg. Current Mood: sleepy

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September 29th, 2005

11:41 am - Hmmmm I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart. FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep. The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit. We went onto the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you...she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey." She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement. Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all dear, let's go to the cashier." I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't feel like it." Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled WHAT?" I then said "honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?" Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either. This isn't a story about me by the way.. lol.. I found it on a joke site and decided it needed to be shared :) Later! Current Mood: happy Current Music: None

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September 23rd, 2005

03:19 pm - Hold me, Like you held on to life, When all fears came alive and entombed me... Well, Its been a long day. I've started working in the backroom at work (backstocking) some, and I must say that I do enjoy it more than stocking. I worked form 4am till 1pm today though. That's never a terribly fun thing. I'm actually getting used to those kinds of hours though. I'm fine after about 8am, but those first four hours kill me. I think its the heat inside of Target when we get there in the mornings. It just drains me terribly. I did a test for my online class when I got home, that took me about a half hour to get out of the way. I ate some cookies and drank a glass of milk, and now here I am. Onto current events. First, the lightest note, this black woman at work had the NERVE to offend me at work today. Let me explain. Every morning we unload an 18-wheeler of freight. Our unloading group is seperated into an assembly line of sorts. Theres a rolling line that all the boxes go form inside the truck to all the unloaders. Two guys go in the truck and place packaged on the line. Two scanners (and the woman that offended me) get the packages next. The woman that offended me, all she does is stands there, and when there is a box for softline (clothing, shoes, etc) she pulls it off the line and puts it on a pallete. Very simple, she barely does anything, considering on a 2000 piece truck there are usually less than 100 boxes of softline. Back to the truck, the two scanners scan the packages and mark them pull or backstock. Simple enough. They also push the boxes down the line to the unloaders.. There are 4 unloaders (and two unloaders on the opposite side who pull all the backstock). I am unloader number 1.. I pull 4 different sections of the store (Pets (toys, food.. anything pets) Chemicals (Detergent, cleaning solutions, etc) Sporting Goods (anything sports, coolers, etc.) and Toys (All toys!)). Along with the 4 sections of the store I pull, I pull all paper and plastic boxes (all plastic storage containers.. of which most boxes are over half my size, and all paper towels, toilet paper, and kleenex (also boxes that are about half the size of me). I also pull combo boxes marked COMBO or 1 off the line. I have to seperate t3rhese boxes into what sections they go into (THey usually contain Hardware, pets, Toys, Halloween stuff, Sporting Goods, and Domestics) So all at once I am pulling 6 sections of the store (two of which contain very large boxes every pull) while seperating two different combo boxes into their cetegories. All of this as the line is CONSTANTLY moving. Now... this may sound like it sucks, because it DOES. Let me continue down the line. Unloader #2 has Four sections to pull as well.. and thats it. Unloader Nunber 3 has 3 sections to pull.. and Unloader number 4 has 2 or 3.... They also have some combo boxes.. BUT, theirs are already sorted.... Okay.. so there is the basic setup.. Packages flow constantly.. we pull our stuff and load them onto flats, etc. Well.. This black woman that unloads the softline boxes only had the NERVE to say "Bah, They're so lazy, they won't come get their own packages, they wait for us to push them down to them".. Which is directed directly at me because I'm the FIRST person that gets them..... I swear they're going to drive me to be racist there.. No offence, I love all races, but this place is favorable to black people. You just have to work there to see it.... Oh the thoughts that were going through my head when she said that. I was in the middle of carrying a box off the line to one of my flats. (Oh, not to mention, I think have the busiest flats on the line.. i swear everything i have other than sporting goods sells in high volumes) Bah Secondly - Okay.. Gospel music (the black kind) has seriously got to be the most terrible music ever created. For some reason, unknown to me, they cut this shit on every morning. 4 in the morning, and im stuck listening to Gospel Radio..... I swear, this station only has one Gospel cd, because its the SAME songs EVERY SINGLE DAY..... Its terrible!!! what one earth were these people thinking? They repeat themselves 90000 times in one song saying the same words over and over and they call it a song. and theres this one song, they keep saying "With words from my mouth" Where the hell else would words come from. If theyre on your hands, theyre signs. Dont get me wrong, I think a lot of christian music sucks, but theres some good, but Gospel is right in there with country. Its TERRIBLE. The only difference is ive found country songs that I like. Black Gospel music is what God would play if he was deaf and blind with no taste. Next! - on a larger scale, Gas prices are on the rise again already! I think our gas station went up a good 20 cents overnight. Wonderful! Hurricane Rita, I hate you! Oh.. for those that don't know, the levies in New Orleans are breaking again and this hurricane has barely hasn't hit land yet. Look, i feel bad for everyone that went through all that. But lets face the facts. If they dont fill in the hole that they call New Orleans, then they NEVER need to build a city there again. Do people not learn from history If we build a city in that valley again, its going to be the SAME stuff sometime in the future. The heck with bigger stronger levies, just LEAVE it.. Its done, Its gone, The city is destoryed. I'm sorry. Personally, if I lived there, I'd never go back after all that happened. Its like a horror movie. Night of the living dead in New Orleans. Youd never know where a dead body was just chilling out waiting on some unsuspecting child to wander across it in the forest while playing hide and seek with his friends. Seriously though. Make New Orleans a GIANT landfill, place some great topsoil over the landfill when it is ABOVE sea level, then build it back. TA DA, we wont have this problem anymore. Too many people whinging about wanting the city back. We're wasting our money cleaning up, and we're waisting money rebuilding. Face the facts..... jeez.. Music! - I recommend that every check out the cd "Dark Light" by H.I.M. Don't be fooled that the music is going to be heavy hard rock, because they have a strange way of twisting their guitar riffs and mixing in sounds to make the songs sound both dark and happy at the same time. They're a suprising find in this terrible year that has been about on the search for good quality music. The album is awesome, and definately worth a listen. It'll be out soon. Some songs to check are "Vampire Heart" and "Behind The Crimson Door". Just give them a listen and enjoy. Bloodhound Gang - No Hard Feelings (The best Breakup song ever!!!!) (Ugh.. dont look at their new album cover though.. its disturbing) *sighs* Im done ranting now, lol. I just needed to vent i guess. Getting up at 3 am.. drives me nuts :) Ill see you all later. Leave some feedback.. and post in your journals! Slackers! Current Mood: busy Current Music: H.I.M - Vampire Heart

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September 20th, 2005

11:38 am - Can Coldplay top "The Scientist"? In the latest Blender magazine, i was reading over "The 500 Greatest Songs since you were born" and came across #55 on the list, "The Scientist" by Coldplay. Singer Chris Martin calls "The Scientist" "perhaps the most beautiful song we will have ever written". which brings up a point in my head. Will Coldplay ever top "The Scientist". Sure.. they have since released a new album (which in my opinion, was better than their last album) and have many great songs on it. But honestly, I don't think any of their new songs even touch "The Scientist" For those of you that didn't know, Chris Martin initially threatened not to make another album because he didn't think he could top it. Contemplate that... Seriously though, they wrote a wonderful song, its almost perfect in every way. And they released it on their second album. This is both a good and terrible career move.. Considering that you have to stay around that mark if you want your future albums to sale. Personally, I'll be a bit suprised if they hit a mark like "The Scientist" again, but we can always hope that somehow they surpass it and release something of its multitude :) (I love this band.. lol) Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Coldplay - The Scientist

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September 14th, 2005

04:47 pm - Just need to rant.. Clear my mind It's been a while since I've updated this, and I just need to take some time to rant on about whats going on in my head. I swear, I just need to make some sense of life and then maybe I can get my thoughts under my own control. To start things off; My job is alright, my relationship is wonderful, my college life is a drag, and my thoughts beyond that are beyond me. It's like I just can't make sense of some things. My mental power is growing weak and agitated at some of the things I'm facing in life. I'm tiring of some of this. College is becoming such a hassle for me (Don't worry.. I plan to finish with no break, I've done come this far....) but I honestly don't see what all the hype about it is. For years I was raised and taught that my mind-state should be "I will go to college and I will graduate." But now that I am there I ask Why. Who on earth came up with the setup for college. It makes no sense. I'm in my fourth year now (Most people get to graduate at the end of this one, not me! Have I messed up in any classes? not really I guess it is partially my fault, but I would also like to point some of the blame at my terrible advisor for my college classes) Back to the point. I'm entering year four of college and have yet to learn much of anything new from the day that I began taking classes four years ago. I rarely study for anything, and I find myself able to do my homework and, if I fully apply myself, maintain good grades in all of my classes. Also, I wasn't the smartest student in my high school. I was in the upper half of the class, but I consider myself average. It just sickens me to sit here and waste my time in classes where I am making no gain. I'm spending my parents hard-earned money that could be used for things much more important. I feel like a leech, and I hate it. On the other hand, without them I couldn't attend the classes that I do in the first place. I seriously do not understand what a business sees in that damn piece of paper that we call a degree. Personally, I have an Associates Degree in Science, but I have yet to see it prove to be of any worth to me. I do understand that I need a degree to get a better job in my future, but I think the whole ordeal is overrated (Unless you go to school like 8 years to become a doctor, dentist, surgeon, or someone along those lines.. In that aspect I can understand why one would need to take all the extra school. I can see where you can come out more knowledgable in the end.) I guess I am just growing tired of my classes and college in general. I just feel that I'm wasting so much time and money at the moment, money that isn't mine.... Then.. there are some things in life that you just have to do. I guess I'm stuck in that...... I've also found myself thinking about what I actually want to do when I finish college and get my almighty "Degree". My conclusion, I have no idea. I don't even know where to begin thinking of what or where I may want to go. I just want to be able to support my view of my future. I have dreams just like anyone else. I want a family, kids, a nice house. I want my family to have nice things, and to not have to want just because its not possible for it to be obtained. If I were to sit here and list out all the things that I want in life I could write a livejournal that is miles long when printed. In the end, I just want Nikki to be happy with what she ends up with. Shes a wonderful girl and deserves the world, and I want to be able to give that to her.. or something close to it anyway. Life is great now, don't get me wrong. But its also stressful. I hate living almost paycheck to paycheck. Nikki is working a full time job and I'm working my ass off and in the end we really have no money left over to show for it at the end of the month. My parents keep giving us money to help us (not at my request.... I'd never request money from them unless I HAD to..... They've done much too much for me in my life... I love them dearly.. but I'm not deserving of all that they have done) and even with the extra money after rent, bills, food, and essentials we still come out about the same every month. On a positive note, we are keeping a good even mark in our checkbook, but still. I just wish we could manage to start saving some money every month. Something noticeable. Nikki works full time every week and I feel like we just blow the money away into the wind. She deserves more than that for what she works for.... In my eyes she deserves some of that. Also, with mine and Nikki's work schedules being almost exact opposites, my time with her has been cut down. I seem to be dealing with this much better than her, but on the inside it still saddens me a bit. I miss her, and I cherish the time that I do get to spend with her. I guess what keeps me going is that after this dreaded holiday season (Hey.. I work at Target.. its dreaded for me) I know that we'll have something to show for all the work we've done. We'll have a good bit of extra money to do what we want to with. You can't chase your dreams with an empty pocketbook... It seems like only yesterday that I proposed to my fiance, but time has flown. I'm trying to get myself to do more to help Nikki with our wedding, but I'm just like her. I don't really know where to begin. Its hard to do something that you have never done from scratch. Its stressful, and seeing her stressed over it makes me stressed as well. Today marks our 1 year anniversary, and I'm more than happy that we have made it this far. Its been quite an adventure, but well worth it. My relationship with her is my ray of sunshine in this storm that I call a life. Thank God that I have her... I dont know what I'd do without her. I love you Nikki. Thank you for everything you have done and for all that you have put up with. I promise, things will smoothe out and our future will be a nice ride... We've just got to clear all our mountains and settle in.... I won't let our future amount to anything less than the dream that we have together.... I'd bet my soul itself on that.... *Sigh* I just duno tho... College, Work, Jobs.. New this.. New that.. Buy This.. Pay that.... I dont know what to look for in this maze that I'm in the middle of.. Its like a scavenger hunt without a list to go by. On the other hand, thats what keeps life interesting and worth living. I just wish there was a shortcut sometimes. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Coldplay - Low

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August 24th, 2005

07:41 am - I want to be the quote of the week.... Alas, it has been ages since I've updated. I know, im a slacker, im lazy, i dont always have my priorities in order, etc. etc. etc. I'm also lucky, because my wonderful fiance', hard as it may be, never points out these flaws in me. Shes a good one, I'm lucky to have her. Lets see, whats going on. I have my new job at Target and it's alright.. It could be better, it could be worse. The long mornings starting at 3 am are quite a bitch at times, but they are something im learning to deal with. (Except for this morning, where I got a speeding ticket in less than 60 seconds from leaving my house... I mean seriously, how the heck can you call that speeding? Jesus.....) Oh well. Today was a very very short day at work.. Our truck was like 700 pieces.. woop te doo.... I was back home at about 7.. Crazy.... I made a gallon of sweet tea just now, I wish it were already ready to drink. Alla-sin-qualla-de-mon-ruski (Akamaru) is being a pest this morning. He's such a good dog usually... Actually, i think its the sleep deprivation that makes me feel like he's a better dog than he is, but that works to his advantage, so I encourage him to take advantage of it.... I miss everyone from Winn-Dixie.. There are some great people at Target, and I'm making some new friends, but none fill the shoes of my past friends. But then again, I dont really expect them to.. All my school year friends have their places, all my college friends have their places, and all my friends from spartanburg so far have their place. Thats what friendship is isn't it.... even though you can find new friends, I wouldnt let them replace my old ones..... Nikki is still asleep, although I'm pretty sure that I've probably woken her up once or twice since my arrival back to the house. Poor girl.. she puts up with me though. I do try to be quiet, but I guess I don't do it well, as she tells me that I wake her up on many occasions. So I'm sorry sweetie, but you're beautiful already.. you don't need to worry about beauty sleep! :) For all you music people out there.. here are some new bands to check out: I Am The Avalanche - I Am The Avalanche (Self Titled Album) *Different.. but good Death Cab for Cutie - Plans (Reminds me of Something Corporate) Really good.. Our Lady Peace - Healthy In Paranoid Times (Not Really a new band.. but good cd) Hed P.E. - Only In Amerika (NOT for children.. DIRTY ROCK) but fun if you want something Harder Staind - Chapter V (MUCH better than their last CD) Jason Mraz - Mr A-Z (Great cd.. love it) Just Surrender - If These Streets Could Talk (New and great.. Punkish) Theres a few.. go get on Limewire and download em.. (Or napster.. or whatever your preference of downloading music is) On a side note. I found this on a message board.. its my quote of the week: "Your submissions make me want to throw bricks at small children. In a good way" School is annoying to me. My schedule is messed up and one of my classes isn't going to work at all. I need to get it fixed, but my advisor is a mother f***ing ***hole.... (Doesn't that just look worse with the ****'s? ;)) Whatever... Strangely enough, I'm tired already. I can't afford to take a nap though. I have to work tonight and I'll never be able to sleep tonight before work if I sleep now... Pity.. Well, I've hit a blank in my mind. I've also noticed that in the following of my trend.. noone else is updating their LJ anymore. Well, I'll be.. Our Lady Peace just gave me another quote to add for a closer to this post.. So here it goes "Talking is just masturbating without the mess" Our Lady Peace - Happiness & The Fish So.. Think about that..... Current Mood: tired Current Music: Our Lady Peace - Happiness & The Fish

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July 31st, 2005

03:08 am - Late Nights Just a quick update to pass a few minutes. Quick story: Winn Dixie decided it was closing. I applied at Ingles. They call me a week later and offer me this crappy job (that I accept.. as security that I would have a job) Didn't really want the Ingles job Left Winn Dixie work that day.. Applied at Target Target calls the next afternoon Job Interview and Drug Test Follow Job Orientation was this past Friday I start Monday morning at 4a.m. So, Ill be making the change to third shift. Which really isn't that bad to me. I'm looking foward to it really. It'll be different, but interesting. I'm ready for it. Target is a great store, I'm looking foward to working there. Its like Monday, Wednesday, and Friday (with some Saturdays). Plus, they pay me more than Ingles or Winn Dixie, and I get more "day-time" for me. I even tried to talk Julius into applying since i knew they needed more people, but so far he's still at Ingles. Good luck to him tho, if thats his cup of tea. :) Andy had his 21st birthday party last night (SUPRISE) and it was cool. He's a good guy, not into drinking, drugs, strippers, etc. So instead of throwing him an adult 21st birthday, we threw him a 12 year old kiddy party (Complete with balloons and ninja turtle masks). It was great Today Nikki and I went swimming with Joel, Andy, and Echo. Fun stuff. I'm still awake now in an attempt to work over my sleeping schedule some so that I'll be good and ready to go to work at 4 a.m. Monday morning. Oh well. Theres a quick update :). I'll get another good update on here soon. Oh.. lastly, I miss Winn Dixie a little. Not the store... The people. :(.. But, I guess I'll meet some new people to work with at Target. And hopefully there will be plenty of time to hang out with the rest of our friends from WD. I wonder what Angel and Michael are up to.. Have only heard from them in a few text messages lately... Wonder how they are. Sleeping I bet.. then again. I duno... They're known to have late nights awake too. :) I miss my friends :) Current Mood: tired Current Music: Nada

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July 20th, 2005

10:15 pm - Jing A Ling The Rides So Clean Cuz Jing A Ling We So Fresh So Clean Alright.. Its about time for an update. So lets see. whats been going on. On the work-front, its been.... different.. and annoying. I've really lost a lot of the will that I had left to actually want to be there. It seems that at our Winn-Dixie store, all the upper people are the ones leaving. Department Managers are fleeing (hell, who can blame em) and it's just getting crazy. I miss the old WInn Dixie already. Its stressful for me because my manager left and the help that I do have isn't worth half of the money she makes on her 4 hours or so a day. I'd rather her not come in. I get more done (When there is stuff to do) when she isn't even there to bother me. On a sadder note, Angel's last day at work was Tuesday. The one manager with any common sense is gone. Angel was great. She deserved her position as Assistant Manager (in my opinion she deserved more than that). She'd go out of the way to help me any time I needed it and I thank her greatly for it. She always made those long Tuesday nights of price changes so much easier on me. I could always rely on her, and she knew that she could rely on me if needed. Also, I respected her more than any other manager there. (Shes up there with Phil, but he's my family :P) She and her fiance Michael are also the best friends that Nikki and I have (Don't worry joel, you're my best friend.. im talkin bout me and Nikki as a group.. lol) Angel, thanks for all the good times you brough to work, its different without ya there. And when good people like you leave a place, its just destined to crumble without you :). Also thanks for the friendship.. you and michael both. You guys are the greatest, :) Now that Angel is gone.. It's one less person to hang out with that can make work somewhat enjoyable. Julius will be leaving in two days.... that will knock off another friend. Good luck to you at Ingles man.. I hope all goes well in whatever comes your way ahead. Federico and Amanda Wall and Barbara are left in the office. They're all great too. Thakn goodness they are still there. Then theres some stockers (Kevin, Caleb) and Cashiers (Michele (LEE), Desire, etc) that still make the store a good place to be. I've made some great friends at Winn Dixie.. and hopefully some of these friendships will stand the test of time. Its weird now.. with everyong looking for new jobs at the same time. I really dont know what I even want to get into. I applied at Ingles.. but truth be known, I don't really want to work there. I'll apply at other places, and hope for the best. *** Onto other stuff... Taking Nikki's advice, I've started reading the Harry Potter series of books. I finished book 1 in two days, and am 80 or so pages into book 2. I'm not a reader, and they are keeping my interest. Which is strange, but I'm enjoying it. I'm eager to get up to book 6 and be up to date. We went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Federico, Michele, and her friend Connie. It's an excellent movie. I loved it, and I'd recommend it to anyone who wants to go see a good movie. It's one that I'll want to add to my DVD collection when it reaches that point. :) Lastly, wedding planning is in full effect. We made out a guest list and realized that we have over 200 people so far that we plan to invite. My best man is picked, (has been for years)... so Joel, I hope your tux still fits. Once I find out how many brides maids Nikki will have I'll know how many groomsmen to ask. It'll be hard to pick those out, I have some great friends. So.. please, noone get offended. You're all my people :) My nephew and niece will be in the wedding as the ring bearer (Ring boy) and Flower Girl. We're still looking around for a place for the wedding, and I'll surely keep you all updated as time goes. :) On the other side of things, we're looking all over for a great honeymoon spot. We've got great brochures from places in the mountains, and places in the beaches. We have places all over in mind, so wish us luck on picking a spot :) Nikki, I love you sweetie, this wedding will be the greatest. It'll be our day (Even though I know you'll be the star :) ) I love ya hun. Current Mood: happy Current Music: The Killers - Somebody Told Me (Team9 Remix)

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July 4th, 2005

10:47 pm - Part II Ahh yes.. July 4th... The time of year you can actually hear peoples money going up in smoke.. literally. Oh well, we spent the day at my parents place with the family. It was fun, I got a lil sunburned, but it was cool overall. All the food was great.. and Aka had a good time playin with all the kiddies. Today comes the announcement of the big secret I've been keeping..... Nikki and I are engaged to be married. I gave her a diamond last wednesday, and we are both very happy. Very few people knew about this till now. We announced it to my family today and we're announcing it to everyone now. We haven't set a date or anything, but we're looking to get this done in a little over a year if all goes well. Now.. to get into the planning stages.. Personally I've been looking at honeymoon spots.. (Hey.. its just as important as the wedding itself!!!) We have decided on one thing so far - "All-Inclusive". Or we hope to go that route. We've found some REALLY nice places online. We still have plenty of time to think about it. So we'll take our time, and go from there. We've even bought a big notebook to start keeping things in. We'll keep all yall updated. Also, for now, until something happens again (if it does) there is a close in the drama in our lives. Enough about that tho, I'm saying not another word. All is great though. I love you Nikki (whom is updating her LJ at the same time as me on her mac) and I'm very happy we can spend our lives together. Now if we only knew where to begin.. lol Wish us luck, I'm sure there will be some pics of the diamond uploaded to the net soon. Its a beauty.. A heart shaped diamond.. Its nice. I did a good job picking it out. Life is great.. Lets keep it that way. :) Current Mood: Engaged Current Music: Tony Yayo - Drama Setter

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July 1st, 2005

11:46 pm - The Sky Could Fall, Could Fall On Me... The Parting Of The Seas... Okay.. so its been forever since I've really updated on this thing, so I figure it is time to do so. Not much has really changed, but then again, everything has. This will probably be a two-part post, with the remainder of the entry coming in next monday or tuesday. I have some secrets that I'm going to bestow upon my readers when the time comes, yet now just isn't the time for things like that. Give it time and be sure to look back. Where to begin? Lets go on a good note. Nikki began her new job at the BMW pharmacy on Wed, and she is enjoying it a lot. I would too if I were her. Its quite and opportunity and will be a great experience for her. Things are really leveling out for us and its great. Our relationship is great. There really isn't much more that can be said. Its wonderful. Our home is starting to feel a lot like home should, even though there are a lot of things I'd love to do if the money were there for it. Don't get me wrong, we're doing great with our money. We're not having any problems. It just takes time to save up that extra cash to do those extra little things you want to do. Nikki's new job should help a lot though, so we'll just be patient. As for my job, its like working in a morgue at times. Winn-Dixie is dead... No matter how you look at it. Everyone has really lost their will to be there. Myself included. Some days I've spent doing barely anything but actually being there to get paid. Recently we had a freezer go out and lost a lot of food when everything un-froze, so we've been sending a lot of that to reclaim. That has really kept me busy lately. I assembled two grills this morning also.. It's nice to have a change there every now and then. On a sucky note about work, my "manager" has a new job already and starts next week. So, our department will kinda fall into my hands. Too bad I won't get her pay. Not that it'll be too much to handle, I'll just have to keep a watch on things and make sure they keep going till I get out of there myself. I really need to go job hunting sometime. I don't really know what I want to try and reach for though. I really dont want to work in the grocery business.. I really like the store I was at but its not something I'd want to do forever. I'm sure I'll find something. I've done a lot in my short life. Worked in a variety of places. The thing I miss is working in a computer place. It's my thing.. I miss it.... Oh well, Next note. Akamaru is growing up still. He's more active and mischevious than ever. I really wish he would complete the teething stage of his life. And potty training is getting better, but i wish it would accelerate into the fastlane of perfectness. Also, he eats like a horse now..... Little pig My mother is going to have surgery later this month on her back. I'm not that worried about it.. I usually don't let stuff like that bother me until it gets real bad for some reason. I love my mother, and I know she has the strength to make it through anthing. She is a great woman with a heart of gold. I don't know how I was lucky enough to end up with parents like I did.. The same goes for my father. I respect him more than anyone, I only wish I had listened to him a little more in the past because now I realize why he told me the things he did. News from U-town has reached me. One of my ex's is engaged and pregnant. I was pretty suprised when i found out. She just graduated high school. Even though her and I have a very very shaky past, I wish her and her fiance the best and hope that they make good parents for their child. No child deserves to be brought into a bad family..... Good luck you two. I dont know if you'll ever read this, but I seriously wish you the best. :) On the drama side of my life, things are interesting as usual. Nothing big has really happened. The last big thing was the "Daddy I'm Pregnant" incident of June 05. I still get a good laugh out of that one. On a sucky note, one of Nikki's good friends wrote her an e-mail about some of the events that have happened since all this bullshit with her old "friends" has happened. I really like Jen, shes a great person. So, I'm not going to post any of the e-mail or anything here. It honestly wasnt that bad. I really wish people would quit saying that I came between Nikki and her friends. It's not true. People like Jamie and Amanda (actually, I think those are the only two that anything has really happened with) caused their own fates. Their actions are what got between them and Nikki. I suspect that Jamie or Amanda have said something to Jen.. Though I cant be sure. One other thing she mentioned was that some of the things I said hurt some feelings.... Apparently they didn't care when they did all that shit to Nikki and her her feelings... So.. that really didn't phase me.. Its America.. I have a right to say what I want.. If it hurts someones feelings, theres still no reason I can be censored.. Lets keep going here: About Nikki's main group of friends from before my time, I'd like to say this: (These are my opinions.. so.. deal) Amanda Gentry - I do not like you, respect you, or care about you at all. You were a "terrible" friend to Nikki (Even the people that worked with you guys at Winn-Dixie told Nikki that after you finally quit) and are just an all around terrible person. I really feel sorry for you. I hope one day you can straighten up... for your sake. I just don't like you though. never really did.. and probably never will Jamie Babb - I never really liked you either, and still don't. I've tried being nice to you and everything else, but it seems to always go back to the same drama. It's always something. You also need to grow up in all this... Theres no sense for you or Amanda to act like you guys have. I know you both hate me, and I'm sorry you feel that way. Nikki is happier than shes ever been.. why can't either of you be happy for her? Jen - You're cool, I have no problem with you. When everything went down to begin with, you seemed to understand why Nikki moved out, and did the things she did. If only you knew all the bullshit Jamie and Amanda have put Nikki through since then. Its all stupid.. I hate that you feel that I've come between Nikki and her "friends" On the other hand, theres no telling what either of them could have said to you.. And as much as they hate me, I'm sure what ever story it was was geared to turn you against me as well. But seriously.. I liked ya Jen.. you were a cool one. Summer - I never met, but from where Nikki has spoken to her she seems alright. I also have no problem with her. She apparently don't hate me.. I don't know what else to say though, cuz i never met the girl. On a side note.... For anyone that thinks I came between Nikki and all her friends... she still has plenty of friends from Winn-Dixie, Winthrop, and some other people I dont really know that chat with her and keep in touch all the time. She has plenty of friends who have no problem with me, and who've never done her wrong at all. Life shows you who your REAL friends are with time... and if your real ones turn out to be fake, you can always find new ones. Oh well.. enough about the drama. We'll see where it goes, and Ill post something up here whenever I feel like it. I'm really getting tired of it though.. It gets so childish.. ("daddy im pregnant!") Lol... children.. Oh well... Look for my post on Monday/Tuesday... I've got more to say later... Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Coldplay - Low

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June 22nd, 2005

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June 20th, 2005

06:21 pm - Some people just dont grow up... Quick story.. today, Nikki's dad gave her a phone call.. Apparently someone was signed on to one of her very old screen names on AIM and sent him a message saying "Daddy, I'm pregnant".... It was more of a laugh than anything for us..... We have a gooooooooooooood idea of who may have sent it. For the record.. Nikki is NOT pregnant... freaks.. Say what you wish.. we know you hate us.. but we're not coming down to your level :) Ehh.. oh well.. Life is great though. Nikki is looking at a new job at BMW. Yup.. B M W... read it and be jealous :). I myself am still at Winn Dixie... and gettin ready for the summer semester at college.. Summer II... fun fun. Everything else is wonderful.. and when people try to bring us down it just brings us another laugh.. I love life... :) Current Mood: happy Current Music: None

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June 3rd, 2005

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May 27th, 2005

12:03 am - You Think You Know Someone.. then ...... You think you know me? Did you know that I've done music.... Made Beats.. Rapped? Well.. you do now..... and the old album is up for download.... Peep the tracks here for free: http://www.soundclick.com/drknyss All the tracks are hot.. but if you want a reccommendation.. check out "I'm Gone".. or any collabs. Hell.. Check it all. To download the album in Full quality.. use one of these: http://s44.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3FQ7HJCR0FUHL06RW30UYGUUD7 http://s40.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0ETPB7FUWJR7213SK4SW4NM2V8 http://s37.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3OKM42QUD8SG80755ACRXZ0KDV http://s37.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1XMJHI11N2XR00T58XV1QDMW3 http://s49.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3RCSFD4I96P0K2CJY6OMXUBKP7 I'll keep the yousendit updated with new links as often as I can. Post some Feedback And hey..... I'm thinking about doing new stuff.. fun :) Current Mood: creative Current Music: Drknyss - D R K N Y S S

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May 26th, 2005

01:32 pm - Found This Funny... http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/238986 Funny..... :) Current Mood: amused Current Music: None

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12:38 pm - Carry Me Home, Put Me To Bed, Leave Me Alone, Its All In My Head Finally.. time to do a decent update. Whats new.... Not that much really. I got bored the other day and threw away every cd that I had in my car and came home and made me a new collection. I think I made like 30-35 cds that night. It was fun. I just finished watching an episode of "Penn and Teller's Bullshit" where they claimed and proved Mother Teresa was a thief of sorts (and also that the Catholic church bent the rules before making her a saint), Mahatma Ghandi was addicted to sex and a racist (He hated black people, and was very open about it), and The Dahli Llama was actually non-peaceful (They used to recieve money from the CIA, and a nice portion of it was spent on making a Guerilla base in Colorado) Strange..... It was a very interesting show. It goes to show that no matter how perfect you are looked at as, you have flaws. Honestly, I personally put people like that in the too good to be true category. And lo and behold, I'm proven right. On another note, with a lack of quality television lately, I decided to check out the end of the 2 hour finale of American Idol. First, the finale show is a load of crap. 2 Hours of random footage and stupid junk, FINALLY some music, and then announcing the winner of the show.. Stupid. For note, I did NOT watch the whole thing, I wouldn't waste my time. So, after looking over the two left, I decided that Bo deserved the title much more than the other chick (Plus, they got a jet.... a person jet.. When in the heck did they start giving those away?) Unfourtinately, just like last season, the person I felt should win did not. Personally, If for anyone, I was pulling for Constantine. He deserved th thing more than anyone else on the show.. hands down. If any of you keep up with that.. go over to the American Idol website and view their poll about last nights show. Looky here: Here is the poll + results. TODAY'S POLL: In the finale, I can't wait to see: Vonzell 4% Previous year's Idols 19% Group numbers 1% Anthony 8% Scott 6% Constantine 62% Total Votes: 3,141,905 Okay.. Apparently, I wasn't the only one pulling for Constantine. oh well, I place Carrie in the boat with Fantasia.. Non-Deserving. Plus.. she'll be out of her element doing these Idol songs.. Shes clearly a country singer.. and they're gonna want to do a pop album. Check her first single if you don't believe me there. To be honest, she would be much better on one of the record labels from Nashville or something.. I mean.. really.. she needs to be in her element. I've really been enjoying a cd by a group called "The Bravery" lately. It's a self-titled album, and i reccommend it to anyone who wants something new. They're a lot like the killers (another great cd). I'm personally waiting on Coldplay's new cd to come out. I mean hey, they are Jay-Z's self proclaimed favorite Rock Band. They also got 5 stars in the latest Blender. Be on the look out for it. They're new single "Speed of Sound" is an amazing song. Nikki and I finally bought a new printer the other day. HP 1610xi All-In-One. Its a great printer. Excellent quality, and my favorite feature.. it can print without a margin on the paper. All the way to the edges... Excellent work. In my recent search for some kind of hobby to take up, I've done a little playing around with Maya, a computer 3d development software. Its nice, I made a pumpkin the other day.. A jack-o-lantern really. It was alright looking. I don't know if I will stick with it though. Next I may try my hand at website development and see if I can do anything for myself with that. I just want something to consume some of my spare time so I don't go out spending money everywhere. I need to save some because we still have decorating to do to our place and lord knows its not cheap. If my website venture is successful then maybe my blog/journal/whatever will be moving to where I can use it the best. We'll just have to see. My problem is my attention span.. Very short... it takes a lot to keep me interested. I swear A.D.D.... Banana! I swear I do. Nikki and I are doing great, we're slowly adding to our home as we go. Our small washing machine/dryer is kinda a pain... Because we don't really seem to keep things washed like we should. Then again, we're both lazy sometimes ;). Akamaru is groing up. He does a lot of his pottying outside now with the occasional accident which results in him being locked in the bathroom by himself for a while. If anyone thinks its cruel.. you don't know our dog.. He craves attention.. and if something good he does does not get him the attention he wants, he does something bad. The negative attention is just as good to him. These past two weeks of work have been hell. I've managed to get only ONE day off each week the past two weeks. HOPEFULLY if nothing happens, I'll actually get my two days off this week. Work schedule sucks these next three days though. 3-11 tonight, 11-5 tomorrow, and 3-11 Saturday. Then... two days off. Hurrah! We need to order some new checks....... I think I have one left... nope.. three Michael and Angel are getting married next year.. and I wish them the best in planning their wedding and getting all that they want. They desreve it. My ex is also getting married next year (I think.. I only hear through word of mouth). I wish her and whomever she is with the best as well. Hopefully she hwas matured and settling down.. Julius and his ex got back together... Good luck to them too. I really hope Julius gets his life back on track. He needs to become who he was.. and I hope his girl can help him with that. He's a smart guy.. He just dont show it anymore. Trouble at work.. Trouble at school. He's playing with his future. and right now he's losing it. Julius.. you used to be very respectable.. I hope you get that back. You're on thin ice in a lot of things.. I hope you can buckle down.. get in a better mood about everything.. and get back up your mountain.. Jess.. Help him.. The purpose of a relationship is to better your other half.. and make them everything they can be.. You both have potential, and I wish the best in your both.. Good luck. Oh yea... lastly.. Team America, World Police is out on DVD.. Get it. Watch It.. Laugh.. Enjoy it... Don't let it throw you off. Its a GOOD movie. I swear it. Worth EVERY penny. And with that. I bring this entry to a close... Later on.... Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: The Bravery - No Brakes

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